Saturday, September 29, 2007

wHeN cAn My oFF dAyS bE MeAniNgFuL?

omg.. 2 off days wasted again..somemore its a precious one.. fri n sat off leh.. some ppl wan oso dun hav.. i oso q long nv have these 2 days off... but den.. it was spent rotting at home.
fri.. slp till 3pm.. actually meetin yw but den i duno y i feel so sian to travel far..so in e end i go yishun watch nanny diaries alone while waiting for hubby finish work.

a new management trainee served mi at box. he saw my card but duno how to use. so he called sally along.. tink he oso surprised when sally greeted mi. he tot i m a ex ce.. haha.. tink i duno wat they say in dialect meh? hahaha.. den sally told him tt i from vivo..
hmm.. usher is v friendly.. come to cbar.. my god, tink oso a new staff. tell him i wan nacho n milo he like blur blur.. when i enter hall den noe he giv mi coffee..sth tt i shdnt drink. but forget it.. long time nv drink too, mi alone too, so no one stop mi, hahaaha...

again.. meet hubby at causeway n tabao food home. again... i started to rot at home.. i mean my room e whole nite. watching e boring tv prog while hubby played war craft. waited for him till 4am den he suggst to watch dvd. den waited till 5am den he finally log off n watch. but he watched less den 30mins n fell aslp. mi too at 6

tot hubby n i agreed on thur to go shop at town area today.. in e end we landed havin swensens at causeway pt.. omg omg omg omg~!
kill mi man.. duno how much unhappiness i felt inside.. i so sicked of causeway pt, nt mention tt i m bored to death at home. aft marriage i duno y hubby's vcd player is gone. i hav nth in e room to kill my boredom..... i wan to buy a new on if not i will go crazy. tink i cant meet my target for e money i wan to save this mnth. we aldy spent more den wat i hav planned.

this mrn my bb freak mi out. suddenly i wake up n feel tt my stomach becomes so squarish. not e usual round shape o.. can feel q edge somemore.. so scare bb move herself in my stomach till she get stuck in some position. den wat if she get stuck n cant breathe how? make mi panic n keep shaking my stomach till it become round. reali scares mi.. hope nth happen to her..

tok abt bb.. as my delivery date is approaching closer n closer, i feel scare.. duno wat happen when i go labour.. how i gonna take care of her.. how i gonna educate her.. how i teach her till she not like other kids on street. sometimes u juz dun understnad how parents take their kids into hands when they so naughty in public.

ar....sian sian sian.. realli feel tt life is so boring now. i miss dancing aft saw some scenes of first emperor due to tt stupid patron. miss goin out... workin is so bored now... miss lee goin bangkok soon... 7days wun see her... aft she back, another batch goin taiwan.. my god.. life will b so bored... there is nth to do at all... oni sit in office n handle patrons if there is a need. cant go cbar cz scare i fell.. cz go box cz i sit there will block way... go floor?? do nth... den where can i go.. feel so useless n lazy. back at home even more sian. lockin myself in e room everyday...
dun wan to step out cz mother in law owas raising her voice at bb, his sis or his bro.. n i hate ppl raising voice honestly. it juz pisss mi off but i choose to kp quiet. sometimes e voices juz wake mi up in e mornin when i did nite shifts. cz my door will auto open if hubby nv close it tight. n mother in law face forever black.. even my mum owas ask mi if her face realli forever black.

tt time vist my mum during my off day, i miss her greatly.. now whenever tink of her i feel like crying.. owas feel like goin back to her.. wondering y i dun feel tt way when i m still single. she knows wat i like or dislike to eat.. even when both of us sit besides each other watching tv, we nv tok, but i still enjoyed e times.. juz dun feel like leaving e house but i nid to. i noe she is bored too. everyday stayed at home lookin aft a baby. she oso sian...esp it makes her backache.
3rd sis got so many prob to handle.. i cant help her at all.. yet she still rem to pass mi her clothes to wear.. nvm know she is so helpful n totful till i get pregnant. cz she owas seems heck care abt things. y i started to cherish my family more aft i get married.. even though i aldy seldom go home be4 marriage.. mayb cz i still belong to them but now status is diff?? hai..

tink i wrote too long.. hubby shd b home soon... realli hope he do his minutes n not playin warcraft so logn again. realli duno y he liek it so much...

ar....BORED~!

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