Monday, October 22, 2007

B O R E D

ar....this is oni my 1st off day for this week.. i still have 4more to go fron thur onwards.. omg..how m i goin to spend my time?? if i hav all my bb stuff at home, of cz i got ting to so but too bad... bed is not ready yet.. bb cabinet is not ready yet.. n i oni left w less den 2mnths to do all these..

had a little arguement with hubby as i wanted to shift furniture of our room, so tt i can place bb bed in our small small room. realli dun feel like putting my bb in another room which i noe i cant slp well in esp aft i juz giv birth. duno hubby understnad e difficulties i will face if i slp there anot..

broke down tt nite when he happened to come home at e 'rite' time. tellin mi not to hide anithing inside but to share w him. now he noe i m worried e space, but he seems not to do anithing abt it.. i waited for a few days later den i ask again abt e space. in e end he angry again.. said he get scolded from papa cz he said we cant shift furniture when my stomach is so big. but i nv heard be4.. oni noe i cant b home when they shiftin tings but nv heard be4 we cant shift tings even when i not at home. sian......den muz i wait till bb is born den can shift? den how can i decorate bb bed when i m in hosp tt time? how can i hang bb toys n place them in e bed..
i still hav lots of bb clothes tt i havent bring home. but no place. how can i dun worried abt all these... how can we do all these aft bb is born oni? does my hubby feel worried abt it as well? to mi, he juz sittin infront of pc playin games everyday. askin mi to share my tots w him but yet he get fed up when i mentioned tings i worried abt. so shd i still share my probs w him?

ppl says mama to b hav to b cheerful bt i dun feel like one. smetimes q irritated when bb kick non stop till i cant slp well no matter on bed or in train. but i noe this is sth tt not everyone can hav it. n i shd cherish it. so i noe can keep sayang'ing my bb when my stomach gets out of shape. now i start to fear to giv birth. scare tt he not ard when i nid him. scare of e pain.. scare of being a mama when i stay in somewhere tt i still dun feel comfortable in aft 2+yrs. juz miss my own family so much. at least they r e ones owas askin mi how m i copin..givin mi advise n items tt i need. whenever i meet them up, i feel so warmth. dun bear to leave them when i noe its time to do so.

sian... dun tok abt bb liao.. tink i clarify w my parents abt e furniture tings 1st.. sometimes really feel so uncomfortable w e weird customs his parents say.

tok abt work? omg.. even more boring.. sch holi coming liao.. but i oni b workin ten days when tt happen n i will b away for 3mnths.. now can start counting down e days tt i will stil b workin at vivo.. seein ppl ard mi startin to giv birth, it juz makes mi more nervous. 1 fren juz gav birth last week but now she is facin some prob w breast feeding.. now still got 3more frenz to go, 2 in nov n 1 in dec. den my turn.. its like so fast. i cant stop tinkin of e procedure tt i will b in when i m in hosp. can i cope w bb? can i get along w mum in law? hai.....

tink i m escapin at work too. sometimes juz nice i was not ard when got complain comes in. sometimes i not e one replyin walkie.. so juz nice i dun nid to handle them. but it make mi feel not to handle ani more complaints.. duno will affect bb anot.. owas let patron scold.. scold mi = scold my bb.. now i been tryin to do mroe gd tings, haha.. but i will still continue to disturb staffs. hahaa.. i owas handlin lost n found items but when it happened to mi, i duno wat to do, haha. i was in e cab w hubby to go ah ma house, den we heard a ringtone but not from us. i tot its drivre one so i nv bother abt it. but when i was e last one to alight. i felt sth dropped. saw it was a hp. den i realised its a phone. i stone thre.. duno to do wat. but i juz pass e hp to driver, sayin its left behind by previous passenger. DIAO~! n i still rem my hubby lost his 1st o2 phone in a cab too. y i so honest? tink e driver oso will keep it too. hai.. but nvm, at least i returned it to e driver. i wun feel gulity or bad. haha..

k la.. wrote so long again...still watchin gong zhu xiao mei.. bored to death. mom in law not at home. house v quiet. someting i like too, haha... no prog for later.. stone stone stone..ar~!!

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