Friday, October 12, 2007

LiFe....

Life...

Y is it so unpredicatble?? Sometimes just a wrong step, n u hav to accept ur mistake n move on with e step u took... While some cant even choose their own life..cz fate hav decided for them.

2days ago, i received a shocking news.. but still, i hav to do my work n leave e tinkin to b done when i m home. one of my fish n co colleague diagnosed with liver cancer..somemore its last stage. hmm.. this fren of mine, used to b my gd fren n enemy be4.. gd fren as in to work hard for company be4, go drinkin, pool n supper. enemy as in he did tok bad behind mi, which caused us cold war for quite sometime. but aft sometime, we somehow back to frenz again..but not tt close animore.

but i like his personality. he is forever cheerful, le guan.. whenever he see his frenz, no matter gd or juz normal fren on street or work, he will greet them wholeheartedly.. but bad ting is, once he fall in love, he will b madly in love.. n occupy her alot.

but den.. such a cheerful person is diagnosed with such a illness.. furthermore he oni 23 this yr.
tink this is e 1st time tt one of my fren get cancer. other den tt e closest one will b my father.. duno y my life nid to go thru much more up n down compared to others.. so envy others living so happily with no worries.. y i have to plan more further den others?

eg, i tot i noe v little abt delivering, pregnancy stuffs cz i owas ask ard for advise. but when i happened to chat with one of my sec sch fren abt his sis-in-law. i realised tt they all havent prepared tings for e baby n e baby is comin within a month time. oni when i told her wat to do den she start preparing.. but on e other side, i tot i can plan things according for my baby, my sis shoot mi back.. tellin mi wat i havent do n nid to do now.. make mi feel tt i m not ready at all.

mayb its e environment tt matters ba... since young i mixed ard with ppl hu r much older den mi. my youngest sis is older den mi 6yrs liao.. since young learnt to b independent cz family owas not at home, so i owas alone at home, lookin for my own activity to fill up my time. even go to sec sch liao, i found myself cant click v well with many frenz.. cz i owas wonder y they play until lidat.. y cant they grow up abit etc... even go poly oso tink lidat. even i go to my 1st job, i oso mixed better with e mgment... eh eh.. i dun mean i po them hor.. its cz i owas ask him y things r lidat, how to manage tings, how to handle ppl.. cz i dun wan my job juz to earn money n serve ppl, i wan to learn more tings tt r not within my job area. thus i learn many of their life stories n exp from them.

i tink tts is y ppl start to mistook mi as a older person compared to my actual age. duno its gd or bad. but sometimes i realli wan to b someone to b pampered.. but too bad,... now my hubby is somenoe hu duno how to pamper ppl.. diao~

tok abt my hubby. sian.....tonite i m goin to visit my mama.. tot i m v eexcited..bt when my sis askin y hubby nv tag along i m sian halfway.. cz i noe he wun come but i oso noe my sis oso wanted him to acc mi....i cant make everyone happy.. trapped again... duno when will my hubby willing to go with mi.. oni noe how to drag mi to his grandma house but not acc mi to my plce.... ar.....

k la.. tok long liao.. nid to prepare to go punggol..

take care folks~

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