Thursday, January 17, 2008

Life has to go on

sian sian sian.. by rite i shd b attending irene bbq at her place.. but i had fever e nite be4, 38.4 deg.. lucky tt jen bought mi e thermometer to monitor, hahaa.. e previous nite my hubby kena fever too, den i tot by last nite he would feel better n help to take care of bb since its my turn to b sick. but guess wat? cz fil scare he kena dengue so we went to doc.. and he was down e ckn pox!!! 2nd time for him. omg... meanin 2weeks he cant carry bb n i got to b alone... damn... but nvm, no diff w or wo his help.

we was toking abt my stress lvl be4 we went for doc. he kp askin mi to c doc so tt he noe if i can take care of bb anot. den was tellin mi y i get so agitated easily now. again, all nonsense/dao li he gav mi, i juz kp telli him, put urself in my shoes n u noe y, but i tink he couldnt get wat i m trying to say.... forget it. i ws too sick to ans him since he still dun understnad. cz i m super hot n v giddy, walkin ard make mi feel tt i m fainting anitime too.

i duno y my feelings for him like fading... when i noe he got ckn pox, my 1st tot is not 'omg, how? is he ok', instead i was like 'damn...i got to take care bb again' in fact i m v sian of my lifestyle.. i mean lifestyle, not life.
confinement = rest more, other things other ppl do. mine? nv rest enuf, got wound yet at nite climb up n down to feed/pat bb. i duno y but i owas feel paiseh to let my mil take car of bb. mayb cz she got too many things to do/wori n yet hav to help mi. so if i can, i do things myself. thus i m so tired all e time.

i no time to online so long cz bb owas cry when i wanna do my things. so i owas sms my fren. my fren oso say, if my life is a drama, sure alot of auntie cry... true.. i nv write everything out in my blog cz i like to hide things inside, thus my fren owas scare i go mad 1 day. i saw sth juz now, abit down to c it but now i m ok..cz my heart is half dead... or shd i say, half dead long ago when i in hosp to deliver bb. i still look/behave/live like a single mum. who noes? i can b one sooner or later... haha, i hav no prob to b on my own...cz for my life, i m aldy forced to face many diff things to b independent.

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