Friday, February 15, 2008

another disappointed vday..3rd yr in e row

guess i dun nid to say, u all shd b able to guess how i feel.
since morning till 12am(15/2), i been hoping i hav sth from him. when he leave e room, i keep checking my drawer for surprise. but there is NOTHING. nothing at all. its e 3rd vday we had tgt but yet i nv receive anithing from him but disappointment. he knew i like vday esp e quarrel we had last vday. it ended up i goin to cinema watching 'happy birthday' alone and cried there.

this yr, i got him a wallet n gave him in advance, hoping he get my hint. but suan le. it shall be e 1st n last vday gift for him aft married. i realli duno how to fix up all e broken pieces of my heart now. too many pieces and no one helping me but oni keep smashing it to smaller pieces. all e unhappiness i felt in e house i everything keep in my heart. if i say out i get scolded if i dun, at least oni mi myself go crazy. no one in this fking house cares abt mi. all oni put up a show when all at home. when i m alone, no ones bother mi even i m trying all my best to comfort my bb from crying. someone oni noe how to sit down n glue his butt on e chair n play WOW when i m carrying bb in front of him. bb cry like no tml oso nv bother to take a look. oni when his parents is home den his dad carry for mi den he go out to 'show concern'. i dun nid such a husband nor my bb nid such a father.

ARGH~!!! i realli cant stnad my lifestyle now. i dun wan to face him. i dun wan to keep my unhappiness inside when i see him. if i tok it out we gonna quarrel again. i scare i split out e D word. a word tt i dun wan to say esp i get married cz i wanted to giv bb a complete family. i wan to move out of here.. a few days oso song. no one appreciate my presence here aniway. i oni can play n tok w my bb when she is awake n not crying. other den tt, my face is black, null. i hate it~!!!

miracle wher r u.... i going crazy soon~!!!!!!!!! i hate him~!

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