Monday, March 24, 2008

life so bored...

lookin at e yao lan in my room, all her milk bottles n toys r kept away.. seein all these made mi feel so empty inside, so down...

1st nite w/o her, i went kbox.. 2nd time went out w colleagues. had our dinner at shodoku at raffles city b1, sth like mache n the village concept den we walked to mill. walk for drink. nv drink much, mi n col had 2 cups of 0.5 light beer while e rest had 1 cup. its taste sweet.. i tot i can get drunk abit n forget everything, but i din..

went home n see e bb stuffs, i feel so down. i miss her alot... wondering hw is she doin now.. hope she treat her gd...

wed... going to vivo for fresh food policy, den shall meet col n ling for dinner.. den weekend go to vivo n bishan chalet.. lots of catch up to do.. do when bb is not ard. i m not passing my bb to her becz i wan to go out. i can dun go for my bb. bb is owas in my 1st priority.. but no one is helpin mi when i go out... i oni can pass to her.. i m not stable till i m able to hire maid. i noe if hire maid, they will make noise. oso nid time to trust maid. so i oni can pass to her.

well well well.. hope i enjoy e upcoming events.. i nid plently of drinks. shall i? shall i go instinct? wish to drink till i drop everyday.. forget everything.. hoping he could come n find mi, but nv...stil not happening.. he might say its cz he doin reservist.. cz he can giv many excuse... mayb i dun stand a v imprt place in his heart. not imprt til he dun even bother to look for mi...suan le.. aldy 17days nv see him. he dun miss mi at all? suan le.. deep in my heart i juz hope he do sth touching for mi to go back. he shd noe tt my heart melts easily.

sian... tink my bday gonna b a lonely n sad one again... oni last yr is a touching one.. but its bcz he oni has mi tt time, i mean he miss mi when he go shipping.. e scenes at airport n how he surprise mi in e room, all still in my mind.

aiya..my mum distract mi.. writing so emo till wanna cry she walked in. still piss w her. no pt telling mi how tough is it to feed e 2bb of my 3rd sis.. i noe she is old to take care of my bb, i dun blame her for wanting to help my sis than mi. cz my sis dun hav ani inlaws to help her, n i hav, n my inlaw treat my bb well.

k la.. gonna prepare for work... mc let mi go work late cz bs too quiet.. ok la, i shall go make up n go.. dun feel gd to go work late though i m allowed to..

take care folks...

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