Thursday, April 24, 2008

life

wow.. been controlling for days yet i finally let it out softly now.
all thx to ck, someone hu we v v v seldom meet but owas there to b my counsellor since sec sch.

painful decision to make now.
a decision tt i hav to struggle with my personal mindset.
i m struggling v hard for it.

i noe outsiders can giv a clearer n better solutions but its all abt myself.
i noe there are many who hav been supporting me all along.
they are owas there. yet its mi myself hu keep on letting myself to suffer.
its mi myself hu make my life more miserable.

i hav to be strong for this coming decision.

<<柠檬草的味道>>

我们都没错　只是不适合　
我要的　我现在才懂得
快乐是我的　不是你给的　
寂寞要自己负责
我要的　我现在才懂得
选择是我的　不是你给的　
幸福要自己负责
错过的　请你把握

still this song. a song tt i found it myself and i start spreading to my frenz till they oso kinda like it. v meaningful song which i mentioned in much earlier blog.

i shall stop here. been insonmia for days. struggling to b awake n attentive at new workplace despite the stress level is piling up.
hope i dun wake up so many times in e middle of the nite later again.
i will take care folks. i have to live a better life. this time its a MUST.
i let down too many ppl for all my decisions tt i had made these years.

to u who might b reading my blog as usual. i might be bad to do those things. but dun try to point fingers at me again. before u point, tink abt how many tubes of super glue n tissues i had used over the yrs.
never step my tail for the second time. once stepped, u trigger e volcano which hide deep in my heart.

like i owas say: Life is NEVER been fair to me. so true...tink abt it.
recall the things i did n sacrified for u over the yrs. u owas said u noe but u nv cherished. i m reali tired...

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