Saturday, April 11, 2009

counting down........

juz bk home frm e movie, fast n furious 4, watched w hubby n abner...n oso joreen n her hubby cz all in same cinema..
at first quite excited over movie but just before e movie starts, my mood is destroyed.

ya... by tt stupid grp of hubby frenz tt i hate e most. cz they are a grp of ppl hu r lazy, fking lazy n useless.. i dun like ppl of tt kind of category..oni noe how to spend mama $ n do nth. n worst of all, they go to those pubs tt r so mani chinas gals.

but he will not listen to me de la. told him tt he whole day nv slp n went swimmin n basketball, still dun wan to rest n yet want to join tt grp of useless ppl. hope he just dun collapse as he did not slp at all.

so irritated by tt. erk~! spoil my mood.
but anyway, my mood is spoil long ago. i duno y i gettin more irritated by him. ssometimes wonder y he just dun wan to get his butt out of e pc.
sometimes i m realli tired to take care of bb but he nv offer help. sometimes i juz walk into our room he will ask mi bring in his food or take his bowl or cup out of e room. today, he wanted to watch tt movie n i ask him to check internet, yet he ask mi check newspaper. wtf, cant he juz click e icon to open firefox n check? check newspaper? later i still nid to use internet to book e tix!

argh.......... i want to go out hv fun w frenz n dun wan to come bk home to take care of bb. everytime go late, i still make myself wake up early in e mornin to take care of bb. in e end i m super tired cz not enuf slp. if i tell him tt, he confirm ask mi to get his mum to take care in e morn. y cant he just offer n help? if he can realise tt bb is stayin away from him, then he shd do his part to acc bb more.

i m just tired to take care of bb on my own n hav to serve a big bb in our room.
i m excited to get a new flat but i m afraid tt i cant cope n die in the house cz everytime i will nid to do myself cz he just play games 24/7.


i oso start to realise sth. y when we go movie, y muz him get others to tag along? y cant just both of us? he been acc his frenz for drinks n y we cant get our own time tgt?
argh...duno y i m gettin so piss off......perhaps i m not getting any support from him. sianz........ppl call mi wonder mama cz everything i do myself. but its not tt i wanted it but it is bcz he is not helping mi......

dun tok abt him anymore..he is already makin mi to drink at home again. n i cant get drunk totally cz i hav to take care of bb in e morn again...damn..........

my bday is coming....i reali duno if i shd expect sth frm him or i juz plan my day with my frenz w/o him. i wan to go n hv fun......but can i? so sian to tink abt my bday...........argh~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

abt work leh.....hai.......i noe tt cf is stress but she is too stress lately tt she cant take it. i duno to offer my help anot cz i scare i cant cope with my things for doin tt. hai...dilemma..


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duno wat to write.........juz wanna another cup of drink w super thick vodka to dose off..

take care folks~!

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